Oh Wow!

So I went over to Beanie's today. Be jealous!

I love it there. There are few places in the world that I can go and feel completely at home. I can open her fridge and help myself to a diet soda (well they are in the cupboard but you get the idea). I can kick off my shoes and let my kids loose and know that we are safe and loved and welcomed.

She feels like a sister. I can't believe that. In such a short time I feel such a connection to a person. There is no way that she is not going to be in my life now. She is a part of me and so are her twerps and even Tophey (say smelly whore! say it!!)

I went there today to have her help me make some baskets for the Festival that I am doing this weekend with Sheryl. I hate cutesy pie shit like that. Ribbons and bows and stuff. I am trying to be more girlie for Ariana's sake. I am trying...We finished the baskets after a little internet lesson on making fooofy bows.

And then for fun. I am sure that she will post the pictures of us trying to be sneaky eating Helen's candy. I seriously am going to look on line for the Ribbon ones. What were they called again? It melted in my mouth and it was just so good. There was no way that I was giving the kids any of that!

Then Beanie decided that she wanted to take some pictures of me. She did me all up kinda slutty looking! And I think she loved it. And I liked it too...the whole big sister thing that I have always wanted. And she took my pictures. I was nervous, felt really self conscious (how the hell do you spell that) and ooogly.

But I did it for her. It made her happy. She was giggling and giddy. So we shall see what she does with the pictures. It will be interesting to see. Make me beautiful Beanie! I wanna be beautiful!