Update...

So, today was long. I can't believe that it is only 5:30. I am so tired. I honestly could have fallen asleep on Lo's couch today.

We got up early and left for my sisters. It is a 75 mile drive from here. I dropped the kids off at a good friend of mine and took off.

I was so nervous. I didn't sleep the night before. I felt sick to my stomach. But I knew what I had to do.

I called my Mom for another pep talk.

My sister wouldn't answer the door. She wouldn't answer the phone. So I hopped her fence and yelled through her bedroom window and she answered.

She looked shocked when she opened the door because of my obvious lack of children. And I told her that we needed to talk.

Everyone has asked me if she has lost weight and I keep saying no. She is a big girl. But I noticed when she opened the door that she looked the same size but her pants were folded in at the waist and held shut with a safety pin. Which tells me that she has lost something.

We sat down and talked. Mostly there was silence. I told her that Dad let me know what was going on and I wanted to hear what she had to say. According to her she has not used in 8 months, it was meth. She cried. I held back my tears because I wanted to be strong.

I told her that my intention was to take Ellie home. That I had a bed waiting for her. That I did not want to see her or my Dad locked up. She agreed.

So, since she is claiming to be free I set her up two appointments with her insurance. One is for a drug test. The other is for a drug counsler.

I did not take Ellie home because of this. Although, I told her that I will persue taking custoday of her if the drug test comes back positive. I told her that I want to believe her, but I don't. But I can't kidnap the child.

I feel a little better. But it was very hard for me. I am very very non confrontational. My sister is the one who will "Mother Fuck You!" in a heartbeat. I am a nurturer.

She had a job interview to go to at noon. That is a good sign because she has never had a job before. She is 25. She had been crying so I helped her get dressed. And I let her put on some sexy lip stuff. She is still my lil sister...