Weight Loss Sucks!

It truly does. It came so easy to me before I had Ariana. I lost 50 pounds in a matter of a few months and I felt so good and proud and beautiful!!

I am back at the YMCA everyday. EVERYDAY!!! And I really love going there. It gives me a break from the monkeys. It is something for me to do for me. And I have Sheryl there giggling with me most of the time. Not to mention complaining and whining.

I am trying so hard. And I know that it has only been three weeks, but I am not seeing any changes. Last week the scale showed that I lost 5 pounds. But that 5 pounds is gone...I am hoping that it is just the scale at the YMCA. So I am going to buy my own scale this week.

The whole scale thing scares me too. I used to be anorexic and that never really goes away. So don't ask me how much I wwant to lose. I can't pick a number. I will focus on that number until it is there and I will not do it the right way. I know that.

So I am picking a new pants size. Before I got pregnant I went from a 28 down to a 20. And after the pregnancy I was and still am in a 24. So that is not bad huh?? Considering that when I had Scotty I ended up in a size 32!!

So for starters I would like to get back into my 20s. And I want it to come easy! I do!! I want this fat to melt away to sexiness...

Honestly, I don't want to change me. I don't want to be super skinny. But I would like to be in a 16 or 18. I would like to be able to purchase clothes at Target and normal stores instead of plus sized shops. I would like to fit into an XL T-shirt.

When I met Tony I was in a 14. And I thought I was huge! And I don't even know how I ended up this size.

Anyways...WEIGHT LOSS SUCKS!!

Oh...I am going to try to post a weekly picture of me to see if y'all notice changes. I will have Beanie or Tony take one tonight.