Dawn Blabber

Well, if you know me you know that my brain doesn't really turn off. It keeps going and going and going. That is why I like sleeping, because if I can fall asleep then my brain slows down and I don't think and when I open my eyes my head is quiet.

So much has happened these past couple of days and my brain is on overload. Thinking about friendship, love, tears, family...It won't stop and I don't think that it will for awhile.

I am thankful for friends that become family though. And I have been blessed in the past few months to have become part of two amazing families. I love that. I grew up with no family around and so I tend to grab onto and clench with tight fists and an even tighter heart to my friends who become family. As, I don't want my children to feel like they only have me.

I want my babies to have several people who are close to them. If (God forbid) they have a problem and they feel like they can't come to me I want them to be able to have a huge list of people that they can call. A person who they love and trust, who I love and trust.

When I was in junior high a classmate tried to rape me. It was horrible, absolutely horrifying. And I told absolutely noone. Not a single soul knew. I remember feeling so sick, scared and humiliated that this had happened. And I can remember the feeling of being completely alone, not having anyone to tell. I feel like if I had more family around that I would have been able to go to someone.

This is one of the biggest reasons that I will never turn on a friend. I will never shut someone that my children love and hug out of my life. I will keep all of my friends....ALL of my family friends forever.

You know who you are.


I guess that is alot of what I have been thinking about. I have more blabber. Wanna hear it?

K...so Beanie and I did Jazzercise tonight! I loved it, I am so fat...
David has a blackhead pimple on his nose, it has been there for a few months. I tried to sqeeze it out but it won't come out. Everytime I look at him I see that huge thing and it makes me crazy.
I really want Tony to shave his head.
I love my new shoes from Payless Shoe Source...they were only $10 and they are just for the Gym. I love that PSS has Champion and Airwalk now. Does anyone get why Champion's logo looks like a D?
I saw a picture of Paris Hilton and Mikey the midget at the gym last week...it still bothers me.
I need a pedicure
I have to go fill out a job application this week.
I hope that Scotty has food poisoning so that the rest of us don't get the pukes too.
Oh! I finally made it to White Level at the YMCA!!! I am so proud...

Okay, that is about everything that is going through my brain right now. Does anyone elses brain work like that??