Curious

Am I the only person who feels like I am wonderful at finding people who just like to fuck me? Seriously...

I feel like I am constantly giving, doing and helping other people. Just for those same people to fuck me ten minutes later.

I have found these people my whole life. And I would like to think that one day they will wake up and realise that I am worthy of something other than being shit on!

I cried bunches today. Beanie saw what set me off. And it scares me that I get set off so easily. But it is not a good feeling to completely forget about everything that is going on in your life. I seriously think that it is more than just being too busy. I feel like my memory is fucked up. I really do. Sorry for the f bombs tammy...

I am proud of myself for Laurie, Sheryl and Tammy. I finally have three people that I know I can call up and ask for help, hugs or whatever and they will give me what I need. And I think that they know that I will return the help, hugs or whatever. I really really will!

Anyways...