Today....GULP

I am so nervous. I am so freaking nervous that my stomach aches and my eyes keep tearing up.

You know, I talk a lot of shit. But I am scared! I am so scared of my sister in law and what will happen today.

I stuck up for myself after my birthday. I told her what I felt and what was the truth and I haven't talked to her since. And now today she is going to be there. And I am so scared that there will be an argument. SO SCARED!!!

I am not scared because of her. I am scared because I do not want my children to see us argue. I do not want to ruin their holiday that they are so excited about. I do not want them to see someone being mean to their Momma. And I certainley don't want them to hear any words of hate come out of my mouth.

So right now I am thankful for many things. But my heart is happy because I have been invitedto four different thanksgiving dinners. And I know that if something goes wrong that I have a place to go. Many places to go where my children and I are welcome and loved.