Anthony!

Beanie, you have no idea how much I love the title thingy ma jigger! I am so in love with him. And, seriously, it means a lot to me that you would actually take time out of your day to make that for me. I LOVE it!

I am not going to say that my life has been horrible. I have had a good life. My childhood was rough. No abuse, nothing like that. I grew up with my Dad and my sister with my Mom nearby. My parents seperated and my Mom got with my sisters GodFather and things were rough. There were a lot of bad things that happened and if you really want to know I will share through private emails...

Anywhoo this is why I am so in love with Anthony...

No matter how the week went my Dad would take me every Friday to the CD wherehouse. They had new CD's but the best part was the used ones! My Dad let me get one every single Friday (high shool years). My Dad rocks! Music was always a big part of our home life and he loved it. He never worried about sensorship or any of that. He taught us that it was just music, that it meant something to someone but we can't take it literally.

When I was in Jr High Under the Bridge was released. And I fell in love. True love. My Dad bought me Blood Sugar Sex Magik


This album absolutely changed me. In all of the drama that was (and is) my family. In all of the crap at school. With all of the people who could not understand me. This album saved me. I know it sounds cliche or whatever, but it is true. I would come home alone, as usual, to do the work of a mother and turn this on. I did all of the things that I was never asked to do with this music blaring in the background. It helped me to not do the things that I wanted to do. Almost like I had a friend that noone else knew or could understand.

So after this album every Friday I would obessesively search for other Red Hot Chili Peppers Albums. Mind you I could only purchase used ones, so it was hard to find them. But every Friday I would search and eventually I was able to get every one...except for Freakey Styley. I still don't have it (money issues now keep me from purchasing anything for me). I never bought any imported ones either because they were never in the used section and they were always expensive. I would get singles too, even if I had the full album already. Oh, he never let me get this one either


i think that even though he was down with music, allowing his teenage daughter to purchase this just never sat right with him. I still don't have it, nor have I even heard it...

It means a lot to me that they are still making music. They still get me through hard times. They can still fix my pain. As much as I love my husband not even he can calm me down like a car ride with my boys blaring.

So, I don't know if this makes sense to any of you...but it does to me. But maybe it helps you to understand me and my obsession a little more...